Ennui

I enjoy my own company very much, but like any conversation, there comes a time when the exchange has run its course and there's nothing left to say. This week while my internship office is on break, I've been struggling to figure out what to do with my time. I've been leveraging connections to meet with alumni, but for the most part, I've had nothing to do.

I supposed it's not necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes you need to push and sometimes you need to take breaks. The problem is that I want to try new things in my breaks, but I'm too anxious to leave my apartment.

en·nui

/änˈwē/

noun

1. a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from a lack of occupation or excitement.

On the plus side, I have a lot to look forward to. Talking to alumni and mentors was an incredibly rewarding experience, and I've come to realize that this is one of the greatest benefits to being in DC. I wouldn't have made those conversations otherwise.

I've also somehow secured my dream internship at the National Education Association, starting next Tuesday. Once that begins I suppose I'll have more to do and structure my day around, but until then, I'll have to figure out how to deal with the ennui. ◊